After Vatentin's day
2007-02-15 @ 8:41 p.m.

i want to drink 'till I drop dead but I have to wake up at 5:40 am like every day all week...
I've already drank too much..
And these days I've been hating myself more than the past months..I don't understand these feelings of hate because internship's doing well..maybe my selfesteem is lost somewhere.
I'm hating the way I look but doing nothing to change it. I hate myself of being so week and so..nothing in this world..
Good point or bad I still don't know..I move into my own flat in march...far from my mom (only a few minutes from her cos still in the same city) and will have to deal on my own, which I'll already hate cose no laudry day fixed, 5th floor without lift, no good grocery shop around..I'm already hating this..
And I still don't know where I'm gonna find work in my city in order to keep this wonderful flat (terrific view on the Alpes and the Leman Lake, you'll kill me for a view like that)
I'm talking too much...see ya..when I'm sober

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