Cocktail
2004-12-16 @ 9 p.m.

Negativity is the key to my world.
I'm always whining about something but never doing anything to change it. I'm the best example of inactivity and autodestruction. The more I live the more I see my fall.
Not having close friends, social life and loved job is leading to a life like mine.
I miss the strength to change something. I miss all those things that make a life alive.
I'm just not able to fit somewhere between life and hell.
I'm just always closing my eyes when I need to open them wide. I think I'm just blind. And happy to be in some way. Too afraid of something really good suddenly happening.
I think I should drink more than I actually am. I think I just need to loose my mind in a sweet alcoholic cocktail I'll call unconsciousness.

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