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2004-09-12 @ 8:45 p.m.

I promise I'll write a proper entry tomorrow.

Tonight I'm a bit tired and I've already drunk too much.

Oh...but I went to Geneva on friday and bought this. It costed me more than 400$ (more than half of my income)...but I'm crazy you already know that....

I had a hysterical panic attack yesterday evening..slaming doors and hitting everything...even my poor dog....wishing my mother called the hospital...it was just so awful and pathetic at the same time....but I couldn't help it...and I wasn't even drunk....all this becose I went to the hairdresser and she cut me a fringe (I never had one in my entire life) and it's just so...awful...I just can't look at myself in the mirror and ...I just wanted to kill myself...

I'm such a dork but I'll never change...

I so wanted to go out and drink and meet ppl...and no I have this horrible fringe....and I just want to....yeah...ok ...that's enough...

I must sound so pathetic...but sometimes I hate myself so much you can't even imagine....

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